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Monday, October 04, 2004

Friday

E called on Thursday nite n told me that his grandma had a fall and was admitted in SGH. My heart was pounding so fast n couldn't slp well the whole nite. Rushed down to the hsp after work. My heart sank when I saw ah-ma lying on the bed. She looked really weak n can't tok much. I wanted to ask her how she was feeling n want to let her know everything will be okie but I can't really speak in Teochew n she can't understand chinese. All I could do is to rub her hand n gv her some warmth. Doctor told us that she had broke the hamline of her hip, the only way for her to walk again is to go for a leg operation otherwise she will be bed-ridden for the reat of her life. *signz*

Saturday

Ah-ma was supposed to go for her op in the morning but she backed out at the last min. We rushed to the hsp and my eyes were teary as she looked weaker then yesterday. All of us comforted her and told her that everything will be fine and she could walk after the operation. Hopefully this would change her mind. *fingers crossed*

Anyway, today is Papa's 47th Bday!! Spent quite a bomb on his present & dinner but guess it was all worth it coz I've make his day!! Woo Hoo!!

L sms-ed me and said he was lonely. Well, I guess it was coz his GF (studying inHK) was not with him ba.. I really admire his preservance and wish him all the best man.. I felt kinda down after consolling him actually. I'm in a stage of confusion now. I have almost everything I wan yet I still felt lonely inside. Wat am I yearning for?

Sunday

She finally had her op and looked energetic when I visited her in the evening. I tink the morphine they used during the op was not completely wear off that’s y she kept toking nonsense and even tried to hang clothes in her bed. In the end, KC had to use his hand to act as a pole for her to hang her blanket. We were all laughing but at the same time, I can feel that tears are flowing down my cheeks. I could see that her health is deteriorating as compared to 2 years ago when I first met her. She’s getting weaker everyday and was easily prior to fall. Really hope that she will get well soon. I was really down after the visit and sms-ed L to tell him that I felt very helpless. Life is really fragile. Who could expect wat will happened at the next minute?

*signz*

Poisonivy on 10/04/2004 09:29:00 AM

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